i can only speak truly for myself, of course. But i have had communication with other sissies and read a lot of blog posts from sissies and Mistresses alike. So, i don't think i'm alone on this subject. That said, here are my views on the matter.
One game i played for years was the sideline game & i think that's the game that really gets to the bottom, base line of the sissy/ Mistress mystique. Fantasizing about submission to a beautiful, Dominant Female is a staple in a sissy's psyche. we want to be Dominated, Controlled, feminized - and we need it.The conundrum is that real feminization and submission is a scary proposition, while at the same time very arousing. Yes, it's very scary - absolutely frightening! And my does it arouse!
It's in a sissy's genetic code, a deep and undeniable need to adore Women. Adoration is so much easier when it's from the sidelines. i did it myself for years. Just looking at porn, a lot of it 'soft porn' with pretty models in various states of undress, but dressed in enticing lingerie. i looked at feminization sites, enjoying - vicariously -the plight of sissies who had succumbed to the Power of a Dominant Mistress.
It was easy to look at, and i was jealous, afraid and aroused all at the same time. Over time it takes a toll. All of the denial & resistance ultimately led to my own submission. Having been married more than once, and having led a male life for so many years, submission has not come easily. i was worn down and forced to face femming by a Mistress, Mistress Cassie. It had to be forced feminization. i could not willingly submit, and i still have stubborn male resistance even though Mistress Cassie has trained me, feminized me, and is in total control.
my game of choice is the 'picture game'. A complex game, which always ends with me losing. If i win one night, i'll come back the next night and lose. There is no real winning, only temporary delays of defeat. i cannot willingly buy another bra when i own over 150 already. That would be ridiculous. i must be forced to buy that bra.
The pretty Women in my picture game do me in, send me to the purchase tab, send me to Mistress & send me further into feminization.
So, now i'm off the sidelines and very familiar with real feminization. But i still play games.
Next up, part two. The rules of the game i cannot win.
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