i've mentioned 2008 as the real beginning of my feminization. That was the year, in May that i had my first phone session with Mistress Cassie. i also mentioned the year 2003. That was the year that i first encountered Her on line. Back then, Mistress had a website, which is now a blog: http://www.sissysalon.com
The website was something i followed with sissy horror and fear starting in 2003. mistress Cassie handed out sissy assignments, horrible assignments. One that i remember well was 'show some lace'. A closet croess dresser for years. i couldn't imagine being out in public 'showing some lace'. Forget about actually going 'out' in public, just showing lace was too much for me to contemplate. Mistress had sissies actually do it & post about the experience of Her website. i was, at the time, in another long term relationship, 2 years running. It was with a much younger Woman and She knew about my cross dressing & even participated to some extent. i should have been content.
But i kept going back to Mistress Casssie's site for 5 years. i was lurking, in awe of this Internet Presence, but never participated. She was becoming am obsession & seemed to offer what was missing in all of relationships with Women, including t3 marriages, a live in partner & an ongoing affair. i had an irresistible, compelling inner need to be dominated by a Female, a need for feminization. During the period of 2003-2008 i had incredible real like experiences in that LTR, including two instances when i dressed and submitted to a strap on.
A seemingly perfect scenario, but something was still missing. The domination i was receiving in real life was occasional role play. i ca to knowhe real meaning of Female domination starting in 2008. On line, on the phone? Yes. Real - YES. i am jumping ahead a bit, but in 2008 Mistress Cassie 'Queen Bee'd' the 7 year old relationship out the door. She took over, completely.
Much more about that to come.
Tonight a reflection on 2003, the beginning of the remarkable web that Mistress wove to trap a sissy, a life time cross dresser who managed to keep it all largely inside, in a closet, and in denial. i had been denying my true inner self for all of those years. Eventually Mistress Cassie opened the door and i walked in. The door is closed & locked now. i am sissy maid diane, living in Mistress Cassie's world, on Her side of the door & She has the only key.
Mistress Cassie has never lost control, but She has allowed me to take a break to deal with some life issues. Soon i'll be dealing with adding new content to my blog restructuring efforts. Content to be determined by my Mistress. i am currently comfortable resting against Her breast. She will soon draw me back in and i will be suckled once again. Eagerly drinking in Her persistent, undeniable Authority.
Next, a look at some of my sissy toys. Soon, more about the Mistress/ sissy relationship & there will be new pictures. Pictures to be taken after my next phone session with Mistress.
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