There is no balance in my current situation. Too many problems, and too much pressure. One thing that i have delivered on is my promise of chastity until i session with Mistress. It's been over 3 weeks now without masturbation. Another type of pressure is building daily. Some days i fight through the pressing biological need to cum without a lot of difficulty. This is not one of those days.
Mistress already knows that i will eventually submit to Her. my unheeded need for Her is what is ultimately out of balance right now. i have been inescapably caught in Her hypnotic and overpowering trap. Sadly for me, Mistress doesn't seem to be a big fan chastity, long term or otherwise. She gets more results from sessioning Her sissies to orgasm. It is a very, very effective way to condition a sissy and exert Her control. She has an expert's timing in delivering a lasting message at the height of Her subject's orgasm. And, She makes more money, of course. it is what She does for a living after all................
Sometimes chastity seems like a more humane alternative, at least for this sissy. :o)
There is one escape though. Only Mistress Cassie can release me from my current state of frenzy, one way or the other. It may be denial, but i can ask:
Please, please Mistress Cassie. Please let me go, free me from Your feminization trap and Your control........
i am literally on my knees, begging.
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